Reflecting...
On Grief In the film Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind , a man and a woman break-up and each pay for an experimental surgery by which they may erase their memories of the relationship and make it as if it never happened. In so doing, they re-live all of their memories as they are being erased. It’s a fairly accurate portrayal of grief. I don’t know that OCD exacerbates my feelings, but it feels like it. Maybe not. I had not had much experience with grief, to be honest. The pain has been unlike anything else. I used to write and ponder the nature of love. I ended up finding it not so intimidating. It’s a corollary of commitment, and I am nothing if not loyal. Finding someone to love is difficult, for sure. Loving the right person is the easiest thing in the world. Opening up my entire being to the person I love and being truly vulnerable took like 30 minutes. Sustaining a relationship is more difficult than loving someone and entirely different. My love doesn...